First of all…….. ^ THIS
SO .. Out of the blue.. the “I Miss You” texts begin.
Picture this, DH (at the time Boyfriend) & I are in bed asleep, its really late, his phone lights up with a message which wakes us up. Its the Ex saying “I Miss You”.
DH says quietly “WTF”. I wake up and ask is everything ok.
DH says “You’re not going to believe this, look at this text”.
Me in my head “WTF”.
I am gobsmacked, then DH says “Go back to sleep, she must be drunk, we can deal with it in the morning”. Turns phone off and yeah.. as if I am going back to sleep.
DH wakes up in the morning and says to me “WTF is that about”. I am all over the place. At this point I am invested. I am scared but I know I have to stick to doing the right thing and so I say “What do you think”.
DH says “She is off her head, she must have been drunk”.
I swallow my feelings and say “What if she wasn’t drunk, what if she wants you back”.
DH says “You’re kidding right, she makes me sick, I would never ever go back”. He then shudders to emphasis his point.
Although I laugh I cant help the feeling of dread that is welling up inside me. I just knew this would happen. I take the opportunity to remind him of what I have always said to him. If he wants to go back and try again, especially for the sake of his kids I would not stand in his way.
He looks me straight in the eye and says “Never going to happen”.
The conversation ends but unfortunately the texts don’t. Later that day DH tells me he received another text from the Ex.
“We need to talk, I miss you, the kids miss you, can we please talk”.
The anxiety fires right back up in my belly again. I know in my heart this is not going to go well. DH comes home PISSED OFF.. Ive never seen him this angry.
He tells me “The minute I am happy this (profanity) (profanity) (profanity) (profanity) wants to (profanity) it up for me”.
I tell him to calm down.
I say “This is really important and you need to hear me on this”.
“You need to spend some time thinking about what you want to do, if there is the slightest chance you think you want to make this work or you want to try again for the kids this is the time to say so”.
“Don’t think about us because if you don’t think this through and then you regret it, you will regret this for the rest of your life”.
DH calms down immediately, he tells me “That isn’t what I want, I don’t want to go back, why would I, she cheated on me more then once, it was never good, the kids were bandaids that didn’t work, its over”.
My hearts swells but I also know that this means a shit storm is ahead. As a Woman I can guess what’s happened. Her new relationship that she left DH for has imploded. I just know it. I tell DH this is what I think has happened and now she’s scrambling and is feeling regret.
I actually sympathise with her. It may sound strange but I try to see things from her point of view. Whatever happened between them happened but now she is alone with 3 children. I don’t think that would be an easy road for anyone so yes I absolutely sympathise with her.
After every relationship trying to rebuild yourself and put yourself back out there is damn hard. Its hard on your own but with 3 kids .. I don’t imagine it gets much harder.
DH continues to ignore the messages which as each day goes by get longer and more desperate. The phone calls start. Missed calls and voicemails are left. The I miss you texts now resemble 20 page essays. “You need to think about your kids” is a repeated sentence. “The kids need you”. “We need to work this out and get our family back together”. “Your kids need you home”.
It’s relentless and DH is beyond angry and if I am honest I am starting to get angry too. The I miss you texts and saying that she wants him back is one thing. But using the kids as a guilt tactic to get him back is completely wrong.
The messages go in circles, it starts with sadness, I miss you, I need you, the kids need you. When DH ignores that it’s, guilt, how can you do this to us, the kids want you home, you owe it to this family to give things another go. When DH doesn’t bow to this it becomes angry, How dare you ignore me. How dare you throw our marriage and family away. How dare you treat me like this.
I am shocked. My understanding and sympathy has a limit. I suggest to DH that he needs to stop just ignoring her or this will just continue. I suggest that I think you need to respond. DH asks me what he should say. I say I cant tell you that but I would start with saying how you feel and saying it’s not ok for her to use the kids as guilt and bait to get you back.
DH husband responds ..I think this was the first time he was angry enough to say how he really felt about everything. I think I have touched on it before but you have to understand that DH’s ex left him.
DH met the ex when he was 21. He was on the fast track to a sports career and things were looking great. The ex was older. Had a habit of hanging around after games and had been linked to other guys in his team. He was warned and didnt listen. His choice.
They were dating a couple of months than BAM.. guess who’s pregnant. I remind him all the time it takes two to tango and there must have been something there or it wouldn’t have happened between them. He likes to remind me he was 21. Young, Dumb and Stupid.
DH tells me he was the last person to find out about the pregnancy. The Ex told her family, her friends then had her parents at her house when she told him so the choice would be made for him of what comes next.
Of course as you can imagine her Dad steps in and I am told says “I will set a date at X and you two can organise the details. You are getting married”.
DOUBLE WOW. Yes you read that correctly. Her Dad set a date at a location and then the wedding was planned. OMG Right?
I mean who can blame the Dad for wanting the right thing to happen for his daughter. I get it. BUT DAMN that’s hardcore. Anyway as the story goes DH got a ring he could afford and that was that. It was a fast wedding and then their first child was born. I will call her the Compassionate Owl (CO for short). I will explain later on why.
Skim a few years and another baby who I will call Leo the Lion (LL). After that things started to get really sour. Things were really on the rocks. DH worked away so trips home would result in him being left with the kids and the ex heading off on weekends away.
Then DH comes home to find another man asleep on his couch.. WTF
I mean WTF.
APPARENTLY the neighbour had come over for a few drinks and past out on the couch. Ummm.. he lives next door?
This was just the start. Things got bad. Then the Ex’s best friend decided she wanted another child so the Ex wanted one too. So things got better so she could get her way. Enter child number 3 who I shall call the Colourful Chameleon (CC).
DH tells me something drastic changed after CC. Firstly the friend who the Ex planned on being pregnant with lost her baby. A rift was created between the Ex and this friend and that seemed to have an impact on her in a big way. Secondly personally the way DH explains it to me I think the Ex had a realisation after the third baby that this life & family was not what she wanted after all.
The Ex started going out a lot. Partying with friends, out drinking, going away to festivals for a few days. The kids were left with her parents or a babysitter. When DH was home the kids were left with him and the Ex would disappear for a couple of days. I don’t doubt 3 kids would be hard work, especially with a partner away! I can totally understand the need for a break but I think there was more to it. I wonder if after the third baby she maybe felt like she missed out on something and wanted the freedom back.
Well when CC was about 1 DH put on a huge birthday party for the Ex. A great deal of money was spent, a lot of people were invited. During the night the Ex seemed to be uninterested in DH and very close with another man. A friend from work. It was noticed by DH, it was noticed by DH’s family and at the end of the night the Ex told DH she wanted a divorce and it was over, he needed to leave the house.
DH believes whatever was going on with this other person it must have been going on awhile. The kids had commented on the person being at the house a lot while DH was away at work but DH just brushed it off. He’s not afraid to admit he was shocked. I don’t know how he didn’t see it coming but its easy for me to say that from the outside looking in.
DH was asked to leave the home straight away. Despite how bad things were DH isn’t afraid to admit he was devastated. It took him awhile to get himself back together. I don’t imagine any marriage failing or family break down is easy despite what is going on in the background.
The Ex made no secret of her new relationship with the “Friend” from work. Fast forward through a great deal of hurt and anguish to DH having to quickly find an apartment and having to start again.
This brings us back to where I left off .. DH’s response to all the text messages.
DH let loose. He called the Ex out on the numerous times she cheated. How she had eventually admitted to sleeping with the neighbour but he let it go and had to move past it. How she demanded the divorce after the party and was already seeing someone else. How angry he was about it all. How the minute he found happiness with someone else she was trying to destroy it.
Well… I thought his phone was going to explode.
The barrage of texts he received back was unholy and nonstop all through the night and the next day. DH had to turn his phone off. It was like nothing I have ever seen before.
After that the guilt/sadness/anger cycle continued. It was exhausting. The Ex wasnt getting her way and she was not used to that. When she couldn’t get DH to respond to that she started threatening to call me.
She told DH she was going to ring me and tell me he was cheating on me to split us up. Of course he warned me and she didnt have the backbone to follow through. This horrendous cycle went on for a few months.
Once the Ex realised it wasnt working she came up with a new tactic. The tactic used by way to many spiteful Ex’s.
The children became the weapons.
To be continued..